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wat am i doing??? tml exams...i still can blog now...oh...my..god..!!! i just that tooOOOoo stressSSs help me please....i had the habit of writing diary...so even if i didnt blog i still write in my diary...now....i can be reali that emotional at times...meaning...i want to cry i can cry at anytime...i want to vent everything out...but i cant....no more kids anymore...i cant just be that way....i feel really sad....down...depressed.....i hate everything...no one can help me.....plus exams stresss...reali....=...( i know im just avoiding.... but i just love to be that way...avoid so i wont feel that bad n at the same time i can concentrate on exams....no letter!!!! no news frm 'him' meaning wat???? i know he must be feeling down n 10 times feeling bad as anyone else....i know the result or answer isnt out yet..so try not to be that pessimistic...but its already april....still no letter.....haiz....argh!!!! really =( wat else can we do or can i do...???? no one understands how i feel....everyone is sick of my stories and tales...but deep in my heart i have the biggest secret that i cant tell anyone...i know he oso feel very bad....but i don wish to say that i feel worse than him...i wont want him to know...but beside him no one else will understand.....y??? i hate it!...perhaps people may think that my thinking is not that mature yet....but i can say i experience more than most of the people....haiz...i dont wish to say anymore....
especially...when you are sick...im sure..gals...u would really want someone to care for you..asked you " have you seen a doctor?...have you taken your medicine?....feeling better???" maybe i never born to have this kind of life as i always tell people that i had never taste before long lasting love....really..sick..in mentally ++++physically...no cure ...haiz...so sad that becos of that stupid sickness i didnt turn up joey-sis's birthday.....so sorry...haiz......
sign off~ revising MR...missing you like crazy...
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